"Maddie, if you do not want me to sing to you at bed time anymore I promise it will not hurt my feelings." This was my last conversation I had with Maddie tonight.
I really do not know why I started it...but...ever since we brought Maddie home from the hospital I would sing two songs before I put her (and then later her brother) to bed... "Twinkle Twinkle Little Star," and "Jesus Loves Me."
Maybe they were familiar tunes...maybe they made me think of comfort....maybe they brought back memories. After hearing my daughter's response tonight...I found my answer. These two songs WERE familiar tunes, they WERE comfort, and they WERE memories.
We all have areas of our lives that "take us back." As I am sitting here, Justin is making our Game Day CD. We are HUGE football fans and every year, Justin makes a new cd that we jam out to on Game Day. The kids LOVE it! While he was searching for songs, he came across some very familiar songs that the kids used to listen to...."The Doodlebops," "Mickey Mouse Club," "Jo Jo's Circus," these are just a few, but these are just a few that spark a memory.
Music can make a mood, music can make you dance, music can change an attitude, music can bring back a memory.
I have a lot of work to do tonight but after I heard Maddie's response to my question...I needed time to think. I needed time to remember. I needed time to share. I needed time to find comfort.
"Mom, it's okay, when you sing those songs to me.....it makes me feel good."
My Maddie said that. Maddie either did not want to... what she thought .... would hurt my feelings or ....actually found comfort in those two songs. I'm okay with that. I assured her when friends come over, if she does not want me to sing anymore, I am okay with that too.
After thinking about this for a little while now...I have had time to "remember." I remember when singing my kids to sleep brought them comfort. I remember when they would not be able to go to sleep without mommy or daddy singing these two songs.
After Maddie's response...they ARE familiar tunes, they ARE comfort, and they ARE memories. Whether or not we eventually become "too cool..." they will always stick with her, just like certain tunes bring back memories to me....I am hope that I am instilling memories....good memories in my kids....maybe ones that will make them think of me.
"Mom, it's okay, when you sing those songs to me....it makes me feel good." I have thought those same things Maddie. One day when you read this blog...you will know...it makes me feel good when I walk into my parent's room and smell the scent of my parents...the smell of my childhood. The smell of Nanny's quilt made out of her t-shirts.
Why do our senses have such an impact on our memories? High school slow dance songs? Grandma's best recipe? Graduation music? The smell of pumpkin? Wedding March? The feeling of a grandma tickling your arm as you fall asleep? Funeral Songs? The image of a picture from your favorite Christmas present?Nursery Rhymes?
"It makes me feel good."
It is okay to feel good. It is okay to recreate memories. That is how history is made and that is how we remember.
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