Okay all you moms....yesterday....I did what every mother dreads....I had "the talk." I had "the talk" with my almost 5th grader. I don't know about you...but things are happening a lot faster nowadays than when I was a kid....kids these days know waaay more than I did at that age and I am fed up with it. I am fed up because... I need my daughter to hear the actual facts from her mother!
If you have read my blog, you know a little bit about my past. I know that every mama dreads "the talk" conversation but I was reeeallly dreading it. Before we began I opened up in a word of prayer. I wanted, no, I neeeeded God to help me get through with what I was going to say to my baby girl. I also wanted her to know that God was and is involved with everything...including sex.
After asking her what she already knew...yes....she had heard "the word" before (as well as other things), she was way off. But...that was okay. I was ready. I had my book, I had my Bible, I had MY baby girl. With her head under the pillow multiple times, her face getting extremely red, and her repeatedly asking me..."you are telling me, people enjoy doing that?" I was ready.
I went through it all. I talked to her about sex. I talked to her about STD's. I talked to her about rape. I talked to her about...well pretty much everything. Again, I wanted her to hear it from me. After asking her if she had any questions...she of course said no....and wanted to end it all right then and there....I told her I needed to tell her one more thing.
I explained to Maddie that sex is a gift from God and is a wonderful thing. But as my eyes swelled and tears began to fall I had to tell my sweet, innocent child, that she was early. She was not a mistake, she was early. I told her that daddy and I had sex before marriage and I became pregnant.
Before I go on...please understand that I am not judging or casting any type of stereotype on anyone. I know the world is different than it was 100 years ago. I know the world is different than it was 50, 20, or even 10 years ago, however, I still have strong beliefs and I needed to tell her what happened before she figured it out on her own (and maybe bottled it up inside) or her friends figured it out for her and was... maybe... made fun of.
I needed her to know that she is a gift from God. She is my little, hero baby and... saved her daddy and I from making mistakes we would have probably regretted.
As she sat silently, and her red, silly, smiley face diminished, I had to ask for her forgiveness. I expressed to her that she was something that was not a mistake but a miracle and gift from the Lord. Maddie is my angel.
After an hour talk, we hugged, I gave her a kiss, and what I thought would be a normal rest of the day...well...was not. She was quiet. She was not herself.
She WILL know that she is loved and... thank goodness...today was better. She was thrown a lot of information. Again...I needed her and wanted her to hear it from me.
My Repurpose for today : To let Maddie know she IS a purpose.
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